My parents spontaneously decided to take my brother and me
on vacation right before I had to leave for school. It was a good and bad thing
in my mind, because all I’d been thinking about is moving in and getting
prepared for rush and just college, in general. I kept creating different
scenarios of things that could go wrong throughout the process. My thoughts
were cluttered with mixed emotions of happiness and sadness, and I didn’t
really know how to get my mind to focus on the present. All I could get myself
to do was to think about the same things that I continually thought about over
and over again. I was also worrying about leaving home and missing my family
and losing my friends. My anxiety and stress levels began to skyrocket right
when my parents told us we were road tripping to Florida. I know what you must
be thinking, why aren’t you excited to go to the beach and get away from
everything? The answer to that would be that once I’ve started to think about something,
I wont be able to stop. I hesitantly agreed and made sure to bring my planner
with me so I could make specific To-Do lists while in the car and while I was
there. I didn’t want to forget anything I needed to prepare, do, or buy before
I moved in to start rush. Quickly after I arrived to our condo on the beach, I
headed to the balcony and watched the waves crash with ease against the shore
and vacationers sun tanning, swimming, and relaxing by the beautiful ocean. I
took a deep breath in to help clear my mind of everything but that moment. The
subtle breeze flowed through my hair as I watched the sun begin to set. I
thought to myself that I couldn’t ruin this vacation with all my stress and
unnecessary overthinking. I needed to start living in the moment, and that’s
what I did. I went to the beach for hours every day, went shopping, and got to
spend a lot of time with my family. I learned to just enjoy myself and be
happy. Because isn’t that the purpose of life, anyway?
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